0:00 - 2:22 - intro - we’ve moved house + i’m giving birth in THREE DAYS 2:23 - 7:18 - settling into the new house, struggling with change + learning to do things my own way 7:19 - 9:55 - unpacking the house with Rory + sorting through all my random sh*t 9:56 - 17:10 - freaking out about becoming a parent, the unknown + people sharing horror stories online 17:11 - 21:57 - the pre-birth panic is real - crying, spiralling + trying to convince myself i can actually do this 21:58 - 23:48 - attempting to calm myself down, showering off the bad juju + Molly-Mae skincare logic 23:49 - 28:01 - hospital checks, Rory’s birth playlist, still not having a full baby name + embarrassing myself one final time 28:02 - 34:01 - HE’S HERE!!! - meeting little matey + first C-section debrief 34:02 - 39:15 - going home with our baby + looking gorgeous while giving birth 39:16 - 43:48 - our first days as parents - having absolutely no idea what we’re doing + feeling VERY proud of myself 43:49 - 45:49 - postpartum has officially killed all allure + the hospital’s bizarre rules 45:50 - 49:03 - outro - our lives have completely changed + figuring out the boundaries
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I'm normally a silent watcher but I just wanted to say thank you for posting this and I'm so so proud of you <3. you are such a beautiful human and little matey is so lucky to have you. you've got this x
I had a little cry when you were on the sofa talking about your anxiety. YOU ARE BRAVE!!!!! ❤ sending lots of love, congratulations!
Oh Holly, your pre-birth panic made me quite emotional not just because I could relate from an AuDHD perspective but because I really felt for you and could see how scared you were. But you did the scary thing and I am so incredibly proud of you (even as someone who doesn't really know you, y'know). Thank you for sharing these personal moments with us, and huge congratulations to you both on the birth of your wonderful baby boy.
⭐️ YOU ARE STRONG AND YOU ARE BRAVE ⭐️
Holly, I'm a lurker but long-time silent supporter, and I just wish to say thank you so much for sharing. You are a strong, brave, capable human being with so much love to give. I'm also an AuDHD girly, and I'm going through all the things you went through pre-pregnancy. You've been a massive inspiration and make me feel so much more confident in myself and my capabilities. You are amazing. Well done to you both <3
Half way through this vlog and I just had to pause to comment and express how immensely proud I feel of you even though I only know you via this strange parasocial relationship. This vlog was so raw giving us an insight into the days leading up to your baby’s birth and your feelings. This is a beautiful capsule of time you will remember forever. Congratulations to you and your little family. Sending lots of love and wishing millions of happy memories to come❤️❤️
I'm usually a silent watcher (anxiety) but I have to say, your pre-birth panic chat almost brought me to tears. Even as someone who doesn't have children and doesn't want them, I related to so much of what you said. And then the Clarins thing made me suddenly cry with laughter 😂 Thank you for being so real and honest.
So happy for your little family ❤️ So proud of you for being so brave, Holly, and well done Rory for being so supportive! You've inspired us all 🥹
I’ve never commented on a YouTube video before, but I felt compelled to comment on this one. I’m newly pregnant and have been dealing with so many anxious thoughts, and your videos have genuinely helped me more than I can say. You’re helping so many people!! You are such a badass and SO brave. Congratulations! Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly. ❤️ Sending so much love from California!
the blonde is giving scandi chic. definitely appreciated the heart to heart. and fuck yeah you're brave. I marvel at you as a fellow audhd but I will say can you perhaps drop that Clarins link 👀 knowing you need to play the Sims on is the ultimate love language I will say Holly I'm not sure you should have given Rory control of the playlist I do that face mimic thing but only when I'm listening to an audio book or reading. like "he smiled incredulously" getting the plunger back out the bin is absolutely FRYING me 🤧 I'll admit I loved having a catheter and often fantasise about how nice it would be to not have to get up to pee at night 🥲 be prepared to drop food on baby no matter how hard you try. I'm sure Onion Toft will forgive you you do look effortlessly phenomenal in the birth pic. love that for you I have to say it's so sweet watching Rory lay eyes on Onion with so much love in the corner 😭😭😭 what we've learnt from all this is that Holly CAN do it!! 💪🏾 my questions are; how are you doing Holly? how are you Rory? is the sleep deprivation as bad as people make it out to be and do you get use to it?
Sorry if you’ve mentioned this in previous vlogs but how did you know an elective c-section was the right option for you? Are you still pleased you went down that route? Just found out I’m having a baby boy in March 27. My own little matey 😊 congratulations to you both! Xxx
Holly at the beginning of the video - I just really wish I could be brave Holly at the end of the video - I really did it I was so brave Well done girl, pregnancy and birth is scary for everyone even with a non anxious neurodiverse brain. You did it!!!!
I love you aren’t showing him,enjoy being mum… but also feel all the emotions! It’s great,hard, fun, stressful and everything in between ❤
congratulations!!! for having a baby, and still uploading a quality vlog xx
The Pre-birth panic section made me so emotional. I'm autistic, ADHD, and the way you were talking to yourself is how I try to talk to myself. That level of spiral and anxiety is so real, and I always struggle to explain it to people so they understand. Seeing you express that so openly online made me feel very seen. I also do the same thing where I just say "I just need to focus on 'x', and then the next thing" etc etc... the fear and overwhelm is so real. Thank you for sharing and being so honest.
How lucky is little matey to have the bravest mum and kindest dad❤ congratulations I am so so happy for you all xx
Holly, you are so freaking brave!!!! Such an open, honest, and raw journey and you both look so content in that last clip. Can’t even describe how I laughed at your Clarins ‘ad’ Xx
at risk of sounding deeply parasocial, i am so bloody proud of you!!!!!! i found your page around the time you made a video about how you live as an audhdiva and it was like listening to myself and my own brain. i’ve loved following your content ever since and really appreciate your transparency around your audhd + anxiety + emetophobia, especially during pregnancy too. you have been, and are, SO INCREDIBLY BRAVE!!!!!! so much change in such a short time and you’ve handled it amazingly. i want to be like you when i grow up (i am 26💅🏽) lots of love from overly-protective emailer circa last week x
Thankyou for such your weekly long vlogs, there such comfort to me Holly & as a fellow ASD girl, I find change so hard & exhausting & therefore I’m very proud of you for “coping” - though that word may not be in your vocabulary at the moment ahah! - sending you so much love & to Rory & Babi as well! (Oh and obvs all my hypes from YT have been sent your way x) 😅🥰✨
I just entered the second trimester and birth scares the shit out of me. So your pep talk to yourself defo helped! Well done for getting through it and having a BABY!